Quickies with Jolanda
2 quickie readings I came across this evening and seeing as I’ve been – let’s be honest – S.T.O.N.E.D. (accidentally) on allergy meds since 8:30am (oh yes, *that* was a fun day at work), I’m in exactly the right place to make bad judgement calls (and typos) 
The first one I found via Melia, from a new-to-me blog, That’s Totally Tarot. This is a significant spread, because in 3 weeks it will be the 10-year anniversary of a day that changed my life; the day I “hunted” The Man down on what is now the OKCupid network. We were married 8 months later, a 2 months after meeting in person for the first time. People ask me, “When did you know?” and the truth is, I knew the first day. I even told my mom that I had a feeling he was it; this based on a 7-line profile on a wacky internet “dating” site. I’m good with the BIG decicions!
If you could travel back in time 10 years ago and have a 5 minute conversation with yourself what would you say? Using your deck do the following spread:
[1] Do not do this - The Lovers
That’s… fuckin’ creepy. Though, *exactly* 10 years ago, I was preparing to “have intimate relations” with another boy. I still don’t think it was a bad idea (though it caused me some hurt at the time) and there weren’t any noteworthy consequences… It’s all part of growing up, right?
[2] Do this - 10 of Cups
Stay home? Celebrate with family and friends instead (I went to my best friend’s birthday the next day)? I’m very confused… The literal translation of the card title is “satisfactory redress”, which is an intriguing angle. Maybe it *is* about the other boy.
[3] Change this - 10 of Swords
Oh good, Ruination & Despair™ (“havoc”), something I’m more familiar with. It’s the end of the worrrrrld *wrist to forehead* I see that little star shining in the background, though. The Man?
Ugh. Tonight is obviously not the night for this one. MOVING ON!
The other is from Monica (who I have pretty much dubbed the “Queen of Quickies” in my head, and I mean that in a completely respectable way 
) at tarot in a teacup, and is based on a passage written by Paulo Coelho:
[1] How am I different? – 4 of Swords
Hmm, this reminds me of the Hierophant, my birth card. I’m different in how I find my peace (“truce”)? A temple of the mind; an internal cosmos. There is an icy bleakness depicted in the card, but it doesn’t *feel* icy or bleak. I think it’s quite pretty. A HA HA HA HAAAA!! Fortress of Solitude! LOL, Jolanda, LOL 
[2] How do I conform? – 3 of Swords
My pain is no different or more special than others’. *POW* That came out of nowhere! Not even a little surprised to see the 3 of Swords again. Maaaaybe I conform in *not* showing the true extent of my pain, good little bottler that I am. Must. be. brave.
Bit of a Swords party tonight; no shocker. Sleep it off, soldier.
p.s. Switched my profile pic – for all those whose blogs it shows up on – due to mild-to-moderate paranoia, and it will probably change a dozen times before I find something that fits.
Well, frankly, I don’t see much point to the first spread. Why worry about what happened 10 years ago? If you COULD go back and change something, you’ve already learned whatever lesson could be learned, as evidenced by the fact that you WOULD change it if you could. Does that make sense? Am I talking in circles?
No, you are making sense! Maybe that’s why I’m getting confusion from it, because that ship has sailed off the edge of the world already and is never coming back. I’m always looking for something I might have missed. Perhaps in looking too hard – and finding nothing – I make things up?
I got a stiff lecture from Hubby last night about looking back and second guessing myself…
That said 10 of Cups could be “keep it platonic” and so the 10 of Swords would be the “woe is me” or “worry wart” attitude.
Now that you mention it, this spread looks like it’s giving me a stiff lecture about worrying (“change this”) about the past! Almost an “So is *this* what you want to hear? Are you happy now?”
Hmmm. Why go back in time – true, really, what is the purpose? I’d say, perhaps a card on “what lesson I am meant to learn from this” may give some insight, or “advice on what to do to heal xxxx”, since some past events still carry wounds and affect the present – if that is the case. It’s definitely fascinating though, I must say.
You are different in that you may well have a siddhi, a special gift (and I’m not trying to be cheesy here). Not many levitate while meditating – heck, not many even get to meditate, since that means stopping the flow of thoughts completely and going beyond. (but that could also be, well, space cadet material!)
I really like that 4 of Swords, so serene, inward, the white hair of wisdom grown long, spiritual.
You introduced me to a new word! I’m reading about siddhi and the chakras now. What’s funny is that you pointed out the levitation and I had a smarty remark about that definitely not being it, because I’ve always had “rocks in my arse”. It’s unnatural how heavy I am. Then, reading about the eight primary siddhis, I discover that “garima” – becoming infinitely heavy – is one of them!
I saw the first spread myself today and thought I might try it, but I really like the second one and think I will give that a go on my blog. Thanks for sharing these.
That’s kind of a fun little spread… I might have to give it a try. Ten years ago, The Magician I Married and I were newly married and had to face DECISION TIME about a lot of things.
Seems appropriate.
Still, anything my Future Self would tell my Young Dumb Self… I probably wouldn’t listen anyway.
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